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July 13, 2021

Born in the town my grandfathers founded,
Born to a family of six,
The fourth of seven children.
Raised with love and care,
Raised with all I wanted at my fingertips.
I was six when my mother died,
I remember how her face looked,
Those dark eyes, begging, pleading me to help her,
And I tried.
But she left, as they all would.
Then, weeks later, Betsey Humphreys took over the reins,
It happened quickly,
Too quickly.
Her cold eyes took one look at me,
And she turned away.
I don’t think my father was happy,
He didn’t look at Betsey the way he had looked at my mother.
My best friend was my sister, Elizabeth,
She understood me.
But she left when I was eleven.
Her warm eyes sparkled as her new husband took her hand,
While I watched, wondering why she would leave me too.
I was sent to a finishing school,
Where my childhood whiled away,
As I watched the sun set in a crimson sky.
I wasn’t unhappy,
Yet I felt incomplete.
Years later,
Elizabeth invited my sisters and I to live with her,
We went to parties, and we met men,
And we fell in love and fell out again.
But I knew he was the one when I met him.
Abraham, with compassionate, grey eyes,
And a sweet, crooked smile.
He was ten years older,
But the time melted away when we were together.
We fell in love,
And we married.
We had children,
Robert and Eddie.
Eddie died when he was four.
I had never felt that grief before,
Even when my mother died.
Then, we had Willie,
And some of the grief went away.
Then little Tad came along,
And my heart started to repair.
Then all of a sudden,
Abe is president.
He took my hands in his,
His grey eyes lighting up,
And his crooked smile widening,
As he spun me around the White House.
Then the year after,
Willie died.
The stitching that kept my heart together broke.
Yet as the years wore on,
I learned to live with the grief.
One day, Abe said he had a treat for me.
The theatre.
I had always loved the theatre.
He smiled as he took my hand and led me to our box.
I watched the play and laughed along with the audience.
Then it all went in slow motion.
A commotion, behind me.
A man’s voice, a gunshot,
A scream.
Blood all over me, all over the floor,
All over Abe.
He died the next day.
I sat by his side as his grey eyes looked at me one last time.
I searched them with mine,
But they were lifeless.
I kept living.
When Tad was 18, he died.
I moved back to Elizabeth’s house.
When I was 63,
It finally happened.
I had been running from it all my life,
But it caught up to me.
Death came.
It crept up on me,
And when I wasn’t expecting it,
It struck.
I had been grieving my whole life,
And now I am being grieved over.
I am tired,
I must sleep now…
About the wife of Abraham Lincoln, Mary Todd Lincoln.


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  • July 13, 2021 - 4:27pm (Now Viewing)

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  • scarlett25

    Woahh.. You've described this sooo beautifully! I really loved it and it was so compelling to read..great work!

    over 1 year ago
  • lone wolf

    wow!! this is so ominous yet so compelling <3

    re: thank you so much for your comment!! olivia rodrigo is a queen >:3

    over 1 year ago
  • A. Penderwick

    Re: Awww, haha, thanks(to your comment on the OG piece)

    over 1 year ago
  • A. Penderwick

    Re: Thanks!

    over 1 year ago
  • barelybear

    Re: hehe :D
    YESS I had a moment exactly like that where I was like “Ohhhh so I’m the exemplar guy now.. :/” oh how the turns had tabled hah

    Hah! Yes all the higher up koalas wear bow ties too. OMG IM GONNA (dodgily) PHOTOSHOP A SQUIRREL WITH A BOW TIE AND THAT WILL BE MY NEXT PFP!!

    Ah yesss! Piragcream >w< I do wanna try it!!
    Also I need to make linnamon roll part of my daily vocabulary :D

    I can relate to breathe more, and Nina’s voice was gorgeoouusss, but Hamilton was my first love, so burn feels right (and it’s more in my range??). Plus Pippa is sooo amazing!!!
    Okay, one for the kids - rap that “Daddy daddy look,” adorable Ant rap from Hamilton or Sonny (also originally Ant?)’s rap from 96,000??

    Lolll I’m sure inside she was dying too c:
    Pfft this sister haha
    But to be fair, I was on edge the whole time for the Hamilton cast hehe

    *Girl into the side drops one of her bags*
    *okay I know I’m an evil king who only wants my own spending sprees and all, but I do have some standards - crouches to pick up bag*
    *Is it fate that brings my head round for one last glance?*
    *or is it that over there it really stinks of dog poo so we’ll face into the wind, thank you very much?*
    Anyways, it’s very tense and all

    over 1 year ago
  • A. Penderwick

    Re: I'll definitely have to check those out. Yesss, they're so good!
    It's amazing that you've seen that already, it's so much fun!!

    over 1 year ago
  • nadyagarza

    re - yesss!!!! it's totally a reference to yntcd, especially because before folklore Lover was my favorite album. thank you so much!

    over 1 year ago
  • barelybear

    Anyways, now onto the—
    Re: ooh it’ll be exciting to see that!! You have such wonderful ideas c:
    Why yes darling, aren’t all the best koalas classy brits in disguise? *blesses unfortunate passer-by with delicious hobnob crumbs*

    OF COURSE LIN!! He is my absolute hero! Plus Piragua, Piragua, so sweet and nice Piraguaaaa. And uh supporting local businesses yanno B)
    Maybe them together...? Ik that’s not exactly how it works but heheh

    Okay, my turn:
    Would you rather work on the dispatch near everyone in the heights, or in Washington’s cabinet?

    I think that on one hand, the cabinet is a more well-off position, and I’d love to primp and preen and dress like the pits of fashion. those battles would be cool to watch, but awful to be in, plus the gossip is way worse than everyone at the salon. So I’d live in the heights and realise my West Side Story romance dream (and wave at Lin’s parents when I get home from uni) :D

    Lmao when I heard you’ll be back I went and squeezed my mum and almost yelled it before I remembered I was in a cinema hehe
    So she got a whispered explanation (which she also got every time I saw an actor from Hamilton muahaha)

    *The wind howls, but behind it there is a frantic calling*
    *ears twitch, becomes confused*
    No... It can’t be
    *Throws a glance back wistfully, and catches a green gleam*
    No, it must be someone’s umbrella
    Aw poor guysss :c

    over 1 year ago
  • barelybear


    Okay this blew me awayyyy!! It definitely reminds me of Hamilton (who lives who dies who tells your story hehe) , and I OMG HER STORY IS SO INTERESTING!!
    I love the lilting rhythm that echoes her instability, and how you show her as always trying to live through death before it finally “Crept up on” her. I also dieeeeddd at “A commotion, behind me/ a man’s voice, a gunshot/ a scream/ blood.” With every line getting shorter and more intense.
    Stunning!! Ahh I can’t wait to see what you write next :D :D :D

    over 1 year ago
  • A. Penderwick

    Whoa, this is so cool. It's eerie, but also kind of sweet? I love the balance between grieving and grieved, I think that's such a cool idea.
    Yayyy, In the Heights and Anthony Ramos!! I don't really listen to Anthony's music, but I loved him in Hamilton and In the Heights(he was also in 21 Chump Street, a 15 minute LMM musical that's on yt; it's great, you should check it out)

    over 1 year ago